I see you

and you look just like me

my love,

I want you to
know that 

I see you
trying to keep it all in

I see you 

~ forcing your smile up with toothpicks
burying tears behind your retinas

~ hiding your trembling hands inside your pockets
talking softly as to keep your voice from breaking

~ the way you twist your legs up into tied knots under the table

~ your chewed up fingernails…